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Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I am so gonna change the blogskin now cause its like ergh.
Anyways, 'it' crossed my mind like 2 times already.
And I am trying to forget apple already, cause well, erm, how to say....errr??? And what was I thinking? Some stupid fugly bitch like ME liking HIM? Renu, what were you thinking?
For now, I am just gonna focus on my studies and make something out of it. Not be a looser like I am now.Labels: Haiz, I am still alive
+ [ Renu ] + 10:50 PM
Septmeber holis....hmm....so far.......
Not so bad...
Currently, doing up my homework so I can start on revising for FYE...yea FYE....
Chemistry paper starts on bloody 2october....this means the other papers would start earlier...BLOODY EARLY. Anyways, I really got to work hard now..I really want to achieve things and I really want to become a psychiatrist or a psychologist(at least)...haiya....I can't just wait and expect 2012 to happen right?
I really appreciate the things you people do for me. Like my last post and all you cared, I am touched..I really am.....
I may think of ending my life once in a while but, heck, I would never do that cause:
1) I am a coward.
2) I am afraid of blood.
3) I know that somewhere in this world, there would be at least 1 person caring for me. It may be my parents, friends, maxy, siblings or even my enemies.
4) There are people out there who want to live and what do I do? I just take my own life away???That's unfair.
+ [ Renu ] + 7:02 AM
Friday, September 3, 2010
I am so goddamn pissed with you right now. Listen asshole,
I fucking didn't insult you okay? Now, what? You were the one who said that you won't insult me when I don't. So you go around insulting people to make yourself feel better? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? JESUS? WHAT YOU ARE FUCKING PERFECT NOW? YOU ARE NOT.
Looks like someone dun wanna treat me like a friend huh? Looks like someone forgot the fact that 'it' would pester me. FINE! I would totally ignore you and treat you like shit like how you've treated me so far. FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE.
And oh yea, today what happened in MT class, really I finally found out what my teacher really was. You insulted me cause I did badly this term right? Fine, I would do well then.
Suicide just crossed my mind. Maybe I should just leave this fucked up world for good.
Maybe, that would please these three cunts.
+ [ Renu ] + 3:35 AM
Thursday, September 2, 2010
my blog is like ergh....(many people would call it dusty)
Anways, life ain't so smooth for me now....so if I like throw tantrum and shit like that, I am sorry..
And really, I am disappointed in you. Really, you made me vent my anger on an innocent 11 year old ( who happens to be my brother )..and you made me so pissed off....and worse, you CONTINUE with all that. WOW, aren't you brave. Really, you are just a stain that I want to erase. You HURT me. You demoralised me. You ate up the last few bits of confidence in me. You made me think of death. You even made me DETEST you. WOW! WAY TO GO!! Thanks, I really appreciate it.
And I feel like going bac to the past. When she was my best friend, the one whom I cried to and told everything to and complained and all but, she is gone and she is never coming back. Then I met you, you changed my life, you made me so happy, alive and you even made me have a little bit of confidence in myself. But then another person took it all away, and when I wished for someone to be by my side, Vidya, you were there. And for this really, I appreciate it to the max. Vidya seriously you have no idea how much you made wanna stay alive. And lexsana and Dharnia, both of you guys, really gave me a reason to not jump into conclusions. And stood by me. Seriously, I really treasure you guys as my friends and I would be by your side like how you have been by my side all along. Thanks, alot Vidya, Lexsana and Dharnia.
And next term, all that shit is gonna happen again. All that late nights, scoldings and tests everything is gonna happen again. And I am going to really really focus on my amaths. Seriously, failing it all the time, no more...I dun care what others say, I would not give up and just continue.
Oh yeas, apple, you were great today! :)
OMG! J.L is like freaking old...EEW! But he hot but I bet you he is a jerk like all the good looking guys in this world.
Wow, someone thought that being drunk and posting it on facebook, would make them look cool/mature.....FAIL LA....go back and pull the weeds....
+ [ Renu ] + 6:21 AM
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
HEY ALL MA HOMIES.....-.-
long time never upload, cause I have a life besides blogging.
First of all, I am gonna make this super extremely freaking clear.
I am sick and tired of you. For like 2 weeks you are like nice and the next 2 weeks you become this ah lian. And you think eing an ah lian is cool? ITS NOT GIRL! IT MAY BE COOL TO CERTAIN PEOPLE BUT THE MAJORITY OF THIS WORLD POPULATION THINKS THAT AHLIANS HAVE PRACTICALLY NO LIFE. And you make things hard, for everyone. Talk to you nicely, give that attitude? Then the next day you smile? And yes, my friends heard whatever you said about me in Amaths to your (only) friend. YOU ARE at fault. YOU were the one who TOLD that UGLY GUY. I am not accusing and it's not that I trust him more. Don't go around trying to gain sympathy by using this dumb excuse. Both of us really know that you were the one. And yea, you may hate my friends for them having their own gangs but in the end, they didn't harm anyone right? ( I mean the friends )....Seriously la...I am sick and tired of you already cause the more I talk about you, the more I feel like throwing a brick at your face. Go ahead join William and spam my blog. In the end, you are gonna suffer. You know Karma right? It would rape you in the ass.
For the first time in my life, I am feeling bad for people. Like people I know. Don't worry, you can get thru this. You can....like for sure. You can do it...you just gotta tap that brave person inside of you.
Hot guys are wierd. They think pokemon do exist.
This sounds cheesy but,
I don't like apple anymore ...I LOVE HIM!
+ [ Renu ] + 5:56 AM
Friday, July 23, 2010
Sorry for the lack of updates ( as if people are reading )...I have a life, you know, besides blogging....(playing TT3!!!)
1) OMG-usher feat will.i.am is an awesome song!!!!
2) People whom I detest are being friendly!!! I LOVE YOU!!but not your friend...-.-
3) TTR3 is an awesom game!!If you have an Iphone/Ipad/Itouch get the app now....tap tap renvenge 3!!!!rock ttm!!
4) wow its been 2months since I like apple...wow
5) Someone got suspended!!!YAY!!!
'6) I am a bitch at times
Oh yea, I may pretend to like you or well at least smile at you..but both of us know that I don't really like you...sad to say, ALOT of people HATE you. Sorry, girl, you are just that easy to hate.
#1 You are such a big FLIRT.
#2 FLIRT must be PRETTY..not UGLY
#3 You can't walk properly...you walk like you are trying to hide your testicles.
#4 You keep telling others about you being close friends with guys..when they don't even know who the fuck are you.
#5You don't know make-up. You have horrible cheap products that match your cheap face.
#6 You have no sense of originality. Go around copying people. Like get a life bitch.
#7 You spread my secrets around.
#8 You have a horrible fake accent.
Maybe you have a good side too
#1 You are fun to hang around with
sorry, I can't think anymore....and oh yea....I don't normally suggest people suicide but for you it's no option. Go straight up your flat and just jump down. Your life would suck without yourself being in it????WTH am I talking???
Anyways people change. And I am glad she changed. But not completely. Like 87%..but not 100%..And you can't be pefect like duh...that is my job...chey joking....-.-
I miss apple.....2 days...2 goddamn days!!!!!
Oh yea...people who insult others are people without any respect for them self. (mr.w)
And I AM FREAKING PISSED WITH YOU. DON'T ASK ME IF YOU ARE PISSED OFF WITH ME!!!I HATE LYING TO YOU!!!
SK is an asshole.
+ [ Renu ] + 4:31 AM
Friday, July 16, 2010
HEY!!!
pfft.....-.-...so tiring...welcome to sec 3 life!!!!!Everyday there is like homework. And this week has been way dramatic for me and for other people...
1) I trusted you, I really did. Are you happy that she is hurt now?
2) I feel depressed like now. Cause things suck right now. Like really suck. And its a common thing that every teen go thru.
3) Silent treatment works
4) Never see chinaman for 3 days!!!!
5) OMG!!!NEW HOT TEACHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
+ [ Renu ] + 1:07 AM