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Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I am so gonna change the blogskin now cause its like ergh.
Anyways, 'it' crossed my mind like 2 times already.
And I am trying to forget apple already, cause well, erm, how to say....errr??? And what was I thinking? Some stupid fugly bitch like ME liking HIM? Renu, what were you thinking?
For now, I am just gonna focus on my studies and make something out of it. Not be a looser like I am now.Labels: Haiz, I am still alive
+ [ Renu ] + 10:50 PM
Septmeber holis....hmm....so far.......
Not so bad...
Currently, doing up my homework so I can start on revising for FYE...yea FYE....
Chemistry paper starts on bloody 2october....this means the other papers would start earlier...BLOODY EARLY. Anyways, I really got to work hard now..I really want to achieve things and I really want to become a psychiatrist or a psychologist(at least)...haiya....I can't just wait and expect 2012 to happen right?
I really appreciate the things you people do for me. Like my last post and all you cared, I am touched..I really am.....
I may think of ending my life once in a while but, heck, I would never do that cause:
1) I am a coward.
2) I am afraid of blood.
3) I know that somewhere in this world, there would be at least 1 person caring for me. It may be my parents, friends, maxy, siblings or even my enemies.
4) There are people out there who want to live and what do I do? I just take my own life away???That's unfair.
+ [ Renu ] + 7:02 AM
Friday, September 3, 2010
I am so goddamn pissed with you right now. Listen asshole,
I fucking didn't insult you okay? Now, what? You were the one who said that you won't insult me when I don't. So you go around insulting people to make yourself feel better? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? JESUS? WHAT YOU ARE FUCKING PERFECT NOW? YOU ARE NOT.
Looks like someone dun wanna treat me like a friend huh? Looks like someone forgot the fact that 'it' would pester me. FINE! I would totally ignore you and treat you like shit like how you've treated me so far. FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE.
And oh yea, today what happened in MT class, really I finally found out what my teacher really was. You insulted me cause I did badly this term right? Fine, I would do well then.
Suicide just crossed my mind. Maybe I should just leave this fucked up world for good.
Maybe, that would please these three cunts.
+ [ Renu ] + 3:35 AM
Thursday, September 2, 2010
my blog is like ergh....(many people would call it dusty)
Anways, life ain't so smooth for me now....so if I like throw tantrum and shit like that, I am sorry..
And really, I am disappointed in you. Really, you made me vent my anger on an innocent 11 year old ( who happens to be my brother )..and you made me so pissed off....and worse, you CONTINUE with all that. WOW, aren't you brave. Really, you are just a stain that I want to erase. You HURT me. You demoralised me. You ate up the last few bits of confidence in me. You made me think of death. You even made me DETEST you. WOW! WAY TO GO!! Thanks, I really appreciate it.
And I feel like going bac to the past. When she was my best friend, the one whom I cried to and told everything to and complained and all but, she is gone and she is never coming back. Then I met you, you changed my life, you made me so happy, alive and you even made me have a little bit of confidence in myself. But then another person took it all away, and when I wished for someone to be by my side, Vidya, you were there. And for this really, I appreciate it to the max. Vidya seriously you have no idea how much you made wanna stay alive. And lexsana and Dharnia, both of you guys, really gave me a reason to not jump into conclusions. And stood by me. Seriously, I really treasure you guys as my friends and I would be by your side like how you have been by my side all along. Thanks, alot Vidya, Lexsana and Dharnia.
And next term, all that shit is gonna happen again. All that late nights, scoldings and tests everything is gonna happen again. And I am going to really really focus on my amaths. Seriously, failing it all the time, no more...I dun care what others say, I would not give up and just continue.
Oh yeas, apple, you were great today! :)
OMG! J.L is like freaking old...EEW! But he hot but I bet you he is a jerk like all the good looking guys in this world.
Wow, someone thought that being drunk and posting it on facebook, would make them look cool/mature.....FAIL LA....go back and pull the weeds....
+ [ Renu ] + 6:21 AM